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August 31, 2016 / Heather

Labor Day Coming

Labor Day weekend happens in just a few days. So my mind has been on things other than updating here and there and even writing.

Well, not entirely true. My mind has been on writing. It’s been focusing on my writing and a few projects that I want to get done this year. I have some free time this weekend that I plan on filling with movies, books, and hopefully a little writing.

There are three projects I’d like to get done this year.

  1. The story-in-verse that I started some time ago. I’ve made no progress on it in a while.
  2. There’s a short story collection/trilogy thing that I want to write. I’ve had the idea for a year or two and I really like it. A friend does too.
  3. NaNoWriMo. I’m nervous about this year and I need to get some projects and planning done before.

I’d also like to get some time so I can write a good friend back. I deeply miss talking to Blue, but I don’t get much time to sit and write her. She’s a fantastic person.

Hoping that I’ll be able to get a friend’s book read this weekend so I can get a post ready for next week with a picture and links. She’s a romance writer, guys and gals.

~Heather/Razor

August 24, 2016 / Heather

Ugh

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That’s the type of time I’ve been having.

There was no post last week because it would have all been grump. Just stuff to do with stress.

There are colds going around and no one seems to be staying inside. This bothers me a lot.

I tried to help foster a dog for my cousins because they could no longer keep him and that didn’t work. Long story there that I’m not going to get into because I’d rather forget about it.

I’m not sure why I’m so angry right now, but for whatever reason I am.

I read a really good book recently and I’m happy about that and I’m happy about the book I’m going to be reading next, but for some reason I’m still very much in grr mode. Probably feeling grumpy because I just want to go back to sleep.

The new Harry Potter “book” is far better than I expected it to be. I had it checked out from a library, then I ended up buying a copy because I didn’t think I’d be able to finish it in time. Catfish spent a lot of time gaming recently because we took advantage of having quiet time and I finished pretty much the whole Harry Potter and the Cursed Child “book”. Yes, I’m quoting that because it’s a screenplay, not a traditional book. I don’t say the word any differently, but for some reason putting it in quotations makes me feel better.

There’s just a lot weighing on my mind right now.

I’m drained, something bad happened, I feel like I’m ready to collapse…

It’s just all sorts of fun right now.

ON THE BRIGHT SIDE!

I know what I’ll be working on for NaNo this November. Whether Unexpected Moments is done or not. Hoping it will be. I really need to get working on that.

The story I’ll be working on is one that’s been floating around in my head and in my notebook for a while. I’ve got a few notes, but not a whole lot else.

Happy moment though, I switched to a smaller purse so it limits what I can carry. Though I carry a larger bag too and I need to swap that out with a different one that I’ve got. @_@ My life is so confusing right now…

I really hope I’m in a better mood the next time I update. Wish me luck on the ventures I’ve got, folks. I’m gonna need it.

~Heather/Razor

August 10, 2016 / Heather

Where I’m At

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For the story I was writing for Camp here’s an update.

I’m still in love with the story, but find it hard to write at home because I can’t get comfortable. Either the chair or the table is too high so I don’t write for very long. Before this it was the fact it was too bloody hot so my wrist would hurt for a long time once I’d be writing.

For the actual information:

I’ve written 99 parts for her, and 90 parts for him. The end goal is still 165 each. I found writing for one character at a time helps me focus and get into that character’s mentality better so this is what I’m going to stick with. It’ll also make writing it easier because I can look at the last few pieces easily because of how I’m writing this and make sure things match at least somewhat so I don’t have one thing happening on him 92 and that same thing happening on her 103 and create a ton of distance.

I’ve added some new characters in, but it’s still all from His and Hers perspectives.

He’s in love with her, but I think it’s becoming more stalker-ish love and hers is becoming more friend-love. She’s reconnecting with an old friend who thought she was gone or dead and yeah. He had feelings for her and she had a crush on him and he’s a musicial who wants to base an album off one of her books so they’re discussing it in public and catching up. Not a “date” date, but a kind of date and it’s making the main male character very jealous and nervous and he’s in the mode of over-analyzing everything now.

I love psychological torture.

She’s got anxiety and tends to panic very easily when she’s with her only real friend (our lead male) and when this old friend hugs her she doesn’t panic. So something’s clicking in her brain.

I’m still not entirely sure how the story will end. Been playing with a few different things. Need to get out my index cards and do a little mapping of sorts. We’ll see if it helps clear anything up. I might also bounce some ideas off Catfish and see what he thinks. Gus and Timba are no help when it comes to the idea stuff.

That’s all for now. (What? A post that’s out ON TIME?! That’s about writing?! That was drafted the Sunday before it went live? Yes.)

~Heather/Razor

August 3, 2016 / Heather

Catching Up…

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So… There’s a lot of stuff to catch you up on, friends and readers. There’s also nothing to catch you up on.

Let’s focus on the actual events, shall we?

I’ve been reading quite a bit off and on. It’s helping me stay sane. Catfish ended up working a crap-ton of days so I barely saw him and there’s news of a sort on that area, but I’d rather not share that here. For my own reasons.

Still fighting my own thoughts on some things. That’s more questioning if things are stress because of work or if I’ve developed anxiety or nerve problems like oh-so-many of my family members. I’m leaning on anxiety. Self-medication with books and browsing internet things. As well as playing a game or two here and there.

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Enjoy the Gus puppy. He loves walks and car rides. My niece took him and Sadie dog to the park at the local library and Gus had fun. Sadie had fun laying in the grass and letting a group of girls love on her (I invited them to pet her when, I swear to you, every single one of them commented on how pretty she was). Gus was happier staying by me and only having my hand on him. Not a social puppy, that one.

We made a massive transition at work and it’s taking a lot of getting used to. Partly why this is late. Part of that is because I forgot to draft a post up so I could have one scheduled to go out and yeah. I really just got behind on some things. This transition has been wonderful, but also exceedingly painful. I’d love to have staff from other libraries working with us longer, but that ship has apparently sailed. I’m really hoping that we can at least have extra staff with us. Extra hands just help.

The book I’m currently engrossed in is one titled “World of Azglen” by P. Mattern (also M. Mattern and J.C. Estall). It’s book 1 in the Full Moon Series about a character named Charley Rabbit, a man who is mentally handicapped. Charley and his mother go on a rare outing and meet some lovely people about Charley’s age and they all become friends. One day Mitzi, Charley’s mother, notices a number of changes. He’s reading alone, when he couldn’t read at all before and people labeled him as uneducable. There are a number of grammatical errors, but I’ve really been enjoying the book. Hoping that the library system will have the others and that I can pick them up. Going to be highly disappointed if they don’t…

I’ve also been reading “The Dreams” on Wattpad by BridgettMorigna (links to her blog, will open in another window. You can also find her story there). It’s fantastic! I’m not entirely sure how to describe it yet, but the best I can figure is it’s about two different worlds. One where a young woman is told she isn’t allowed to talk to a young man who has a reputation in the village and she ends up what seems to be having feelings for him so far and it parallels with a current-time story about a young woman who prefers to stay in and read or study for college rather than going and partying all the time. Her friend sets her up on a blind date the one time she decides to go out and ends up enjoying the time she starts spending with the young man. It’s very cute and very well-written. I love getting a little free time and pulling it up on my phone. People probably think I’m playing a game or on facebook, but I’m actually reading!

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This is me. From a few years ago now, actually. I recently dyed my hair red and we’re not talking brownish auburn red, we’re talking orange copper red. And I love it. Not the green I really wanted, but I wanted to test at work (because there’s no real rule about hair) before going with something a little more wild. There are professionals out there with brightly colored hair and tattoos all over the place (not to mention I have a coworker or two who has tattoos). I’d rather like to be easy to spot if someone needs me and the hair helps with that.

I guess that’s all for now. This is a rather long update and I’m hoping the next one will not only be on time, but will be shorter. Also hoping I’ll be able to udpate you on the story I was attempting to write during Camp NaNo. Peace for now everyone.

~Heather/Razor

July 20, 2016 / Heather

Updates!

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I’m currently listening to an audiobook for a book I’ve been meaning to read for months, but haven’t had time to read the physical copy.

I also finished another audiobook this morning. It was a collection of short stories.

I haven’t been writing much, but yesterday I got a lot of writing done. Why? Not because I sat down at my desk to write and that’s all I did. No.

It’s because I took a break from thinking about writing and had fun with a friend. We talked writing and talked about problems we’re having with parts of the stories and motivation and work. We had coffee and laughed, glad to be able to spend time together. This is a friend I’ve had for years and because of our schedules we don’t always get to see each other. We also agreed we needed to meet up for more it. Maybe the next time I’ll sit there for a while after and write or show up before and write.

So when you’re struggling, maybe you just need to take a step back and… Do something else. I tend to try and push on, but that’s not always the answer.

I’m also still debating a title. Working title is “Unexpected Moments”, but I’ve had another title idea that I seem to like more.

Wish me luck.

~Heather/Razor

June 29, 2016 / Heather

Progress… In Progress?

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I’ve made very little progress since my last post. Very little. So progress is still in progress for me. I’m still hoping to get a lot done this weekend. Friday we close at 5 and then we’re closed until the 5th so I get time to read, write, or do whatever. Best friend coming over this weekend to watch a movie loaned to me by a friend/coworker.

20160507_184201 Tuesday I went to Indy for work and it was a beautiful city, but it wasn’t a fun trip. The best part was laughing with those I was on the trip with. We had a lot of the same feelings about it and considering two of us got around 3 hours of sleep (if that) it was a long, long day.

But we won’t dive into that here. By the end of today I should have 86 pieces per character. As I write this I’ve got 53 pieces per character. Including today’s goal I’m 11 days behind. I know I can do a lot of writing, but damn that seems so far away!

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Sunday was an awesome day. I got to sleep, got some writing in, and then I went to a movie (The Conjuring 2) with two of my best friends. Then we went out to dinner. It was a very much needed girls night out. When I came home Catfish was asleep already, but he woke up to spend a little time with me. He then got to laugh at me because since it was a horror movie I got a little freaked out. Then I also had unrelated nightmares that same night and I was nervous about the Indy trip.

I need to be making more progress on this story… Camp NaNo starts on July 1st. Before that day hits my goal is to have 89 pieces to be on par for my goal. I doubt I’m going to make it there, but we’ll see. Depends on how much time I spend sleeping vs awake and how much time I spend writing.

Speaking of… I should really finish lunch and get some writing in. I hate writing before I leave the house on a schedule because it means I can’t get that much farther into my project and it’s what I really want to do. Get so far into a project that I don’t want to leave it. I feel like I’ve been in these shower scenes forever and I’m only one with one of them! At least the 2nd one might move faster. He’s the more cooperative character.

Good luck to anyone else participating in Camp NaNo this July. Peace everyone.

~Heather/Razor

June 22, 2016 / Heather

Progress IS Progress

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My current motto.

Progress is still progress no matter how much got done.

I’m working on my project for Camp NaNo July 2016. It’s the story-in-verse that I’ve mentioned before. So essentially what I’m doing is using the end of Camp to give me a deadline. The “word count” I’ve set is the number of pieces that I want to have total.

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Notebook a friend gave me some time ago that I still treasure. It’s just gorgeous! And a typewriter!

So while 330 “words” might not seem like a lot, that’s a set number of poems/pieces a day. And from where I made the start at and from all the calculations I made (don’t ask me for them, I ran the numbers, did a triple check, and then tossed the scraps away). That’s (at the moment) 3 poems/pieces per day per character. Alternating back and forth between two characters. Since I don’t have set word goals per piece this is just the easiest way to give me goals and deadlines.

Even so, I’m still behind. But, Progress is still progress no matter how much got done.

Working on Camp in July? Look me up! Drop me some mail. Twitter me! (PoetRazor13 [same for Instagram and Snapchat].)

~Heather/Razor

June 15, 2016 / Heather

I’m Laughing About… What?!

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So, interesting topics at hand!

Did you ever watch Scrubs? The episodes AFTER Sacred Heart had been converted into a college and JD was a teacher?

Have you ever watched “A Young Doctor’s Notebook”?

So… Syphilis!😄

Yes, I’m laughing my head off about SYPHILIS at the moment.

In one of the episodes of Scrubs towards the end seasons there was a med student who “rapped” about Syphilis. Weird.

I enjoy Daniel Radcliffe and on Netflix one day a show popped up called “A Young Doctor’s Notebook” starring Radcliffe and Jon Hamm. The show takes place during the Russian Revolution and surrounds a young doctor working at this hospital and everyone hates him. Everyone. There. Hates. Him. For no reason other than he’s young and he’s NOT the previous doctor. It’s a very dark story, but has its moments.

Basically every time he turns around he’s running into someone with Syphilis.

I got Catfish to watch with me at least once. He picked up on the Syphilis thing REAL quick.

So why am I laughing about it? Syphilis turns up every few months in conversation with Catfish. I watch a LOT of medical dramas, okay?

I looked up the news and guess what?

Syphilis.

Specifically an article talking about how there was a 70% increase in Syphilis cases between 2014 & 2015 in my state (according to CDC on par with national trend).

But…

X’D I just can’t help it!

Syphilis is a horrible thing that shouldn’t be laughed at, but folks…

It’s like every 3-6 months that it comes up SOMEHOW in conversation. Some show references it. It’s mentioned in a song. Catfish questions how there’s no record of more of our historical founding fathers who had it… But somehow it always comes up.

So there’s your post for questioning my sanity.😄

Heather is laughing at Syphilis coming up in conversation or news every few months.

I swear, I’m not crazy. At least, no more than a normal person. *Cheshire grin*

~Heather/Razor

June 8, 2016 / Heather

I Swear I’m Not Sick!

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Damn allergies… *grumble grumble*

Lately it’s not only been hot (at least it’s cooling down before it keeps climbing), but my allergies have gone berzerk!

I’ve been sniffling at work and one day I was even blowing my nose which I try not to do. Usually if I keep moving I don’t have to as frequently, but that one day I was sitting still most of the day. Oh lucky me. It’ll get better, I just wanted to vent out that.

In other news!

I’m planning on participating in Camp NaNoWriMo in July, but I’m not sure what project I’m going to be working on. Originally I planned on re-writing Letters (a project I did years ago), but I’ve been really enthralled with the story-in-verse that I picked back up on a month or so ago. I don’t want to put that one down. I really just don’t. So I might be doing that for Camp. It’ll also make me lengthen the project and give me some semblance of form for that. I don’t even know what I’m saying right now. I’m just happy that it’s going well.

Lots of stuff going on with the house too. We’ll see what happens. We’ve hit a stumbling block with something. Grr. Just have to hope for the best.

The car is fixed though! No more angry spring. I’ll take what good news I can get where I can get it. Maybe I’ll post a teaser somewhere. Maybe not. Who knows. I’m not really one for teasers usually… I like reading them, but I don’t like posting them myself.

Deep breaths. Deep, even breaths. Stress will not win! I would like to see it make my hair go grey though. Yes, I use e instead of a. I prefer that spelling usually. Peace everyone.

~Heather/Razor

June 1, 2016 / Heather

What’s In A Bag?

I’ve always loved the what’s in my bag type things and I haven’t seen one done for a while and I feel like doing one.

What’s in my bag?

  • Hand/body lotion (when you use hand sanitizer all day long your hands crack and bleed).
  • Gum (because I also talk all day)
  • Deck of playing cards (because you never know)
  • Phone charger (again, you never know). I carry the wall adapter as well as a portable charging block just in case.
  • Multi-tool!
  • Allergy pills (in case I forget in the morning).
  • Usually candy of some sort (like Starbursts)
  • Ibuprofen and Aleve. Yes, both.
  • Lighters (I don’t smoke, but people I know do and they come in handy. 4th of July, projects, etc.)
  • Tweezers
  • Q-tips
  • Bandages
  • Pad
  • Body spray (Specifically cranberry or one called “Vampire” that I found and haven’t been able to find since and it makes me very sad because I really like it.)
  • Voice recorder.
  • Batteries for said voice recorder.
  • Stickers that came with bandages.
  • Flash drives. Yes, multiple.
  • Charger for my Fitbit.
  • Hand sanitizer (on the outside of my bag)
  • Extra bag for books or whatever (on the outside of my bag)
  • Lip balms/chapstick.
  • In the Winter I carry arm warmers in my bag
  • Headphones
  • Currently headband
  • Wallet
  • A tiny travel Buddha.

And the last thing I carry in my bag…

An absolute fuck-ton of pens. 38. 38 pens and 2 pencils. I’m going through and making that number smaller.

Mind you… This is just the 1st of 2 bags I carry because I never know when I’m going to be getting books and because not everything would fit into this first bag.

In my 2nd bag:

  • Kindle
  • Notebook
  • Physical book I’m reading at the moment
  • More pens/pencils
  • Spare headphones
  • Binder clips
  • Planner
  • Another hand sanitizer clipped onto the outside.

Maybe Catfish is right… Maybe I do have a problem with pens…

~Heather/Razor

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