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December 6, 2017 / Heather


I’m having trouble at the moment being clear and not deep.

Have some puppy pics.


November 29, 2017 / Heather

A Very Late Post

So it’s been almost a month since the last post went up…

There’s really no excuse.

I got married, did some writing, gave up on NaNoWriMo for this year (2nd year in a row that I don’t finish), spent time with family, and in general did some random stuff.

I’ve finally started feeling like I’ve gotten caught up at work with a few of the duties I’ve been given. Took me long enough, right? I was off for 2 weeks, but it’s been a little chaotic getting back into the swing of things.

I was planning on writing this post via the mobile app so I could easily post it and even add some pictures. I took some nice shots of my dog recently.

If you remember, Catfish and I did get a kitten and he’s adjusted VERY well to the family. Gus and Earl Grey haven’t had much time together yet, but Timba and Earl Grey have had a lot of time to bond and get their plotting done together and for Tim to teach him some very bad habits.

Earl Grey also has his OWN bad habits… Like pulling down my curtains. And he chews cords worse than Tim does/did. We HAD Timba broken of that habit, but Earl Grey apparently got him back into it. Tim just chews until the cords show and the headphones are useless. Earl Grey chews until the thing breaks apart. Damn cats…

Hopefully I’ll be able to do a better update later. I don’t feel the greatest at the moment, but I feel like I’ve gotten a lot done lately and I’m hoping to get even more done soon.

I’m currently reading Joe Hill’s latest book “Strange Weather” a collection of 4 short novels. I’ve been listening to the audiobook mostly, but I have read a little of the eBook/physical book. I finished the first story and I’m hoping to finish the 2nd one tonight or maybe tomorrow depending on how I feel while listening tonight and while reading once I get home. I’ve been spending some time at my local library.

For those who are wondering, yes I changed my name. I will still go by Shavor and Razor, but my legal name changed and I’m really excited and happy about that. It was a lot easier than I thought it would be.

Time for me to get writing and playing with a calendar. x.x I hate this time of year for that reason… I update 2 calendars for the whole coming year…


November 1, 2017 / Heather

Just a few more days…

That’s right. Just a few more days as of this posting until I get married. I’m nervous, excited, and just… Internally I’m screaming like you wouldn’t believe. There’s a lot that I’m looking forward to, like seeing a lot of people, but there are also things that I’m not looking forward to, like meeting new people. Catfish and I both invited people that the other hasn’t actually met yet. For him, it’s coworkers I haven’t met. For me, it’s family he hasn’t met as well as a few friends. ^^’

I’m excited to meet people that work with him and have worked with him for a while. He’s gotten to meet a number of my coworkers, so why shouldn’t I meet his, right? I’m also nervous about that because sometimes I don’t do well with new people and it’ll be a battle with what I call anxiety issues. That’s going to be a royally fun day. Thankfully I’ll have him, the monkey, and different people that I know around to help me out.

What am I most excited about? We already live together and have for a while. We already sleep beside each other almost each night. That’s not going to change. We have pets together, we don’t want kids. We have bills together, etc.

I’m looking forward to being “officially” married. Under some states there’s something called “common-law marriage” which basically states if you’ve lived together for so long and a few other factors then you’re considered legally married. Our state doesn’t do that.

I’m seriously looking forward to the whole little ceremony thing and the fact that one of my favorite uncles will be there for the whole thing. He hasn’t been back here in a long time and the last few times he’s been back have all been for funeral and death related things. We actually have something to celebrate. And so help me if any of my family try to start something or run mouths or anything at all I’m going to be the first one to throw them out. And I mean physically. I might have lost a lot of strength over the years, but I’m still pretty damn strong compared to some people. And most of my family members who would try to start anything are smaller than I am, except in height. And I’ve also got several people who would help me throw others out if I needed help or if someone started anything. These are the people I can’t live without in my life.

There’s also another person who’s coming from out of state that I’m SUPER excited about, my buddy Lupus. He hasn’t been out here before and we’ve known each other for a long time and he’s seen me through some pretty rough things.

There is someone I wish was coming that I never even got the chance to invite. Shao. He’s not just a friend, he’s also an ex of mine that I’ve stayed on really good terms with. He’s a riot and I haven’t been able to reach him for a while.

The weather here is getting pretty danged cold. Makes for beautiful Fall/Autumn weather, but makes for a really friggen hard time getting out of bed because this also means that I’m not using as much time as I could to plan NaNo. I’ve got most of the stuff I want to have planned out planned. I’m also planning on going to the write-in tonight (the night I’m writing this, not the night it’s posted. That’s the downside and trouble of drafting posts is I don’t know for certain what’s going to happen between the time I write a post and the time the post goes live). If I manage to make it it’ll be my FIRST time at one. Correction, it’s the kick-off party for the local region, not a write-in. Write-ins don’t happen until after NaNo starts. I’m just so excited that I might actually be able to get to y’know DO THINGS that I don’t usually get to do!

All I’m going to share for now is that my story is currently titled “Thoughts [Un]Interrupted”. I really like this title and I’m excited for it. I’ve also got several other thoughts and stories buzzing around inside my head that are making it hard to concentrate. I’m actually kinda concerned about a few things for this NaNo. There’s more information on that in my DeviantART Journal though. At least there probably will be. Can’t say for sure because I’m going to be writing that after I finish drafting this.

Have a good one, folks. And yes, after the wedding I’ll still be going by and signing off the same way. Peace. HAPPY NANO!!!


October 25, 2017 / Heather


This last week hasn’t been easy. The cats are getting along fine now, they play a bit rougher than I’m used to, but that might just be my boys.

Time is passing really quickly. I haven’t been able to get much reading in and that includes listening to audiobooks. There has been a lot on my mind, most of which being the impending NaNoWriMo 2017 that I’m not prepared for. I’m nervous because I have very little in my head for this NaNo. Less than I usually do. I might do something I haven’t done in a LONG time.

Some good news is that I think I’ve finally overcome biting my nails. I still pick at them off and on, but I’m not chewing them like I used to. I’m currently on week 3 and I think what finally helped me here in breaking it is I’m not only tired of the pain if I chew them too far down, but I’m doing this while a friend of mine is trying to eat better and lose a little weight. I’m doing it this time because she inspired me and I’ve told her this. I don’t want to let her down. That’s one of my biggest things. I don’t want to let people down.

It feels good to be writing this, partly because I’m writing it on my laptop, but partly because I’m writing this at a new desk with a candle burning next to my computer, in front of my chalkboard and it smells beautiful. I’m also listening to “Sleeping Beauties” by Stephen King and Owen King.

I’m also looking forward to the next few weeks because after this week I have 2 weeks I took off. I’m looking forward to getting married, yes. But I’m also looking forward to an uncle of mine coming home for the first time in a long time. This isn’t his home anymore, but I call it coming home because he grew up back here. There’s also a good friend of mine who’s going to be coming here for the wedding and that’s one of my biggest things. We’ve talked about meeting and visiting each other for years and this is… It’s happening. He’s an awesome person and I can’t wait to get a bunch of pictures with him and show him around my city and just have a blast.

Catfish has given me one of the best gifts. We took down my desktop and my old desk Sunday night and he finished putting up the new one, but on top of that he fixed it when I’d broken something by following the instructions and had gotten so frustrated I “rage quit”. For those unfamiliar with the term, “rage quit” means to stop something or give it up because you’ve gotten mad or frustrated with it to the point where you can’t stand it anymore. In extremes it’s where someone, usually a gamer, has stopped playing and done something like throw a controller or break a game disc. Don’t tell me this doesn’t happen, because Catfish HAS broken a disc in anger. It was a $5.00 game though, but still. Bottom line is I know it’s happened. People also rage quit books because you frequently hear about people throwing books across the room because they couldn’t believe what happened.

I’m making decent progress in this book, but I’m also listening to this one, listening to another one, and reading something different. I had also pre-ordered a Kindle copy of the new Joe Hill book “Strange Weather”. I’m super excited to read it because it’s 4 stories by him, so the length and layout seems nice because they sound like they’re going to be decent length stories in this book because it’s over 250 pages.

We’ll see how things go here soon. Like I mentioned before there’s still a lot of planning and plotting I need to do for my NaNo novel this year. I do have a title, though I’m not stating what it is here quite yet. It depends on how things go.

Peace everyone.


October 18, 2017 / Heather

Not Gone

I have not abandoned my blog!

I’ve just been busy with things. Like cleaning. And we got a new kitten. 

Earl Grey. He’s adorable.

I’ve also been trying to read and plan for NaNo and dealing with wedding things and figuring things out at work and there’s a lot going on. I’m currently obsessed with trying to finish reading this book of poems by Rupi Kaur The sun and her flowers. She’s a brilliant poet.

Seriously when I say brilliant I mean it. Most poetry books I scoff at because they’re not good and I wonder how anyone can connect with the works but Kaur’s writing is another matter entirely. She makes me feel like my writing is extremely lacking which is good for me because it gives me something to aim for with it.

I have a massive pile of books to read because Harlan Cohen, Stephen King (with Owen King), Rupi Kaur, and Dan Brown ALL had books come out within the same 2 week period. And I also went to a bookstore within that timeframe and I’m dying because I bought a bunch of books that were on clearance and add to it my membership discount I saved a lot. TWO OF THESE BOOKS ARE FOR REFERENCE I SWEAR!!! Seriously, ones a first aid book and the other is a copy of On Writing by Stephen King which I’ve read before but I can’t find my original copy and I also bought The Fireman by Joe Hill which I’ve read before and did not own as well as some other books that have been on my radar for a while but I keep forgetting about until I see them in library collections when I don’t have time to read. There was also a library book sale last week.

I have three countdown going. Wedding, until a family member arrives, and until a friend arrives. I’m super thrilled because now when I look at my planner I don’t just panic, I get super excited.

Alright! Well, I have things to do today and need to get started on those things! I have already cuddled and played with the kitten Earl Grey for a while, but I have many things to do. Peace everyone.


September 28, 2017 / Heather

My Anxiety

This might be something I’ve talked about before, if so please bear with me or go ahead and skim the post for other things.

As someone who started college as a psychology major I spent a fair but of time researching things and I even read the DSM-IV for fun at one point. I still love psychology today, but it’s not my life path now. Years after I’d been out of classes I was doing more research and found that I might have self-diagnosed anxiety.

Whether you do or don’t have an anxiety disorder you have likely had anxiety about something before at some point in your life. There are fantastic ways to cope. For me, meditation and music are the biggest things. This is the bachelorette party weekend which for me is basically just hanging out and partying with friends. A friend asked me to call when I got the chance and I was the only one up so I called. We talked about the wedding registry and how I needed to add more to it.

For those who haven’t done a registry before it’s crazy easy through certain apps. Which takes a lot of stress off. What does not take stress and anxiety away is the fact that it shows you how many days are left. It’s hard to imagine it happening so soon for me. And then adding more to the registry brings up some anxiety about the cost of items or if there’s too much or not enough on the list.
I added things. I took a selfie when I smiled remembering that a good friend is planning on coming here for that weekend and I can’t stop smilingnwhen I think that both this friend and an uncle of mine are basically traveling across the country to come visit and be here for this. I love both these guys dearly and I’m beyond excited and eager to see them.

The other thing that helps me calm down is scent. I’m not talking things like bath bombs or aromatherapy oils. Just normal scents that mean something to me. Every year at the fair for several years now I get leather bracelets. I love watching the man stamp the names and symbols in and I love the smell of the bracelets. It’s calming for me. Deeply calming.

I am planning on doing NaNoWriMo again this year. I finished edits for Unexpected Moments on time happily. I feel relieved about it but also feel there’s a lot I could add to the story. I did add more things and removed some elements and I’m pleased with that. I realized there were parts that were not going to work and I accepted this is the journey my characters are taking for themselves.

I’m looking forward to fresh characters for NaNoWriMo and I’m eager to hear about the projects friends and readers are going to be working on or are working on right now. This is my favorite time of year.


September 20, 2017 / Heather

Seeing Dawn

As much as I wish I could say this post is about seeing some old friend named Dawn I can’t.

No, this post is about the time of day (morning) called dawn before the sun comes up or right after the sun comes up. I’m too lazy at this exact moment to look up the definition so we’re gonna call it the time right around the sun coming up.

Which I see multiple days a week.

Here’s your periodic peek into my life:

On the average day when Catfish works we get up around 5 or a little after. Because my best friend works night shift and usually gets off work when he goes in I sit around and wait and usually talk with her for a while. So if I don’t see the sun come up while I’m talking with her usually it’s when I’m either on my way home or on my way back to bed.

Some mornings if I’m really lucky I’m in a meeting when the sun comes up or just after.

Don’t get me wrong, I like the sunrise. I think it’s beautiful. But it’s not for me. If I had a choice I’d much rather watch the sunset every night than watch it rise half the week. Part of this is because I don’t want to hear the birds chirping. I’d rather hear things like coyote or wolves howling at the moon or even a dog howling at it.

That’s your current little peek into my life.

As far as writing goes I’m on schedule to finish this week. Actually once I finish drafting this post today (Tuesday) to go out tomorrow (Wednesday) I’ll be working on finishing the story. I’m on page 129 of 135 so with 7 pages left I only have half of what I would normally work on because I tried to work in chunks of 15 pages.

Other things I need to get done today:

  • Cut invitations to proper size
  • Get invitations ready to hand out or mail
  • Work
  • Go to writing group tonight (omg YAYYYY)
  • Remember to finally add more artists to my Amazon Music library
  • Anything else that I can get done that’s wedding related on a list that I have in a notebook in my purse that I’m too lazy to dig out at this particular moment.
  • Start plotting for NaNoWriMo

On a side note, I’m rather pleased with myself not only for keeping up with an editing schedule, but for remembering to draft posts and get posts out on a regular schedule here. Peace everyone.


September 13, 2017 / Heather


Honestly, as I’m writing this I don’t feel super well. I’m not sick and I’m not in pain, I just don’t feel too well. Something feels off is all. I’m debating a lot of things and there’s a lot on my mind.




OMG IT!!!!!

Saturday was dress alterations step 1, and Saturday night was It.

There were 4 of us who saw it together and I’m impressed. I love the original. I love the book. I had high hopes for this movie and it did NOT disappoint me.

I’m purposefully leaving information out here, but let’s leave it at this:

The movie holds up well to the book and the original movie. The only thing that bothered me is that it IS a 2-parter (at least) and was not mentioned or advertised as such. I should have guessed, honestly, because the previews and trailers only showed the kids. Now my friends and I are eagerly awaiting for the next part and we’re curious to see who is cast as the adults. I’m so bloody thrilled for it though. My best friend and I are thinking it’ll be a year before the next part comes out. It should only be a 2-part movie, but we’ll see. I’m super friggen stoked in any case.

I feel like I’m falling asleep on my feet here folks. I don’t know what’s going on. I don’t know if it’s the weather (though I’m looking forward to Wednesday because the weather is supposed to be nice and cool, coldest day this week and I love cool, crisp, Fall weather).

If you get a chance and you’re a fan of horror, go see It. Do yourself a favor and read the book though, too. The audiobook is long, but it’s SO good. I’m really debating re-listening to it now. I wanted to read it again before I saw the movie, but I didn’t have NEARLY enough time to do such a thing.



September 6, 2017 / Heather

Progress, & Deadlines, & Plots (Oh my!)

I would really like to take a minute to appreciate my own title humor. If you’re not familiar with it then I wonder how old you are. Lions, and tigers, and bears, oh my is the joke.


Progress: My workplace was closed on Saturday for the Labor Day holiday/weekend/there was a festival there that maes traffic crazy. So I was at my local library working on Unexpected Moments. I had already met my progress for the week with it, but wanted to get ahead while I could. While sitting there at the library I was able to get this weeks scheduled work done. So I haven’t made any progress on it this week. I’m actually writing this post before I’m going to post it which usually I draft it the day before or maybe a couple of days before. So kind of behind and kind of not. I’m just excited that I got as far as I did on Saturday.

Deadline: People who do any project of any sort LOVE the d-word. We absolutely love it. That was sarcasm. Truth? My deadline for getting the edits for this novel (Unexpected Moments) is a self-imposed deadline, so I actually do love it. There is no consequence except guilt to myself and guilt that I feel like I’ve let people down who are expecting me to be on top of things. My readers? Future readers? I dunno… So I’ve been talking on Twitter aboit my progress. X number of pages done or whatever. So the story is short. Ony 134 pieces to the actual story, but there are 135 pages.  At least that’s what it is while I’m working on these edits. It may or may not stay in that format when I do something else with it. Who knows. I sure as heck don’t know right now! (If you know please let me know because I would really like to know.) This week I was supposed to get through page 105. I am currently at page 111 because I worked ahead. So as I said in the previous paragraph I’m done with the work for this week already. I may or may not decide to work ahead further this week. I have not decided yet. I should keep working, but I might take the time to relax and bask in how far I’ve made it right now. End of next week I have a goal of getting through page 120. Then only the last 15 pages getting me through to the end at page 135. Then my writing life becomes ALL about that lovely event that happens in November. NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month).

Plots: I am in the process of trying to start plotting my novel for NaNoWriMo 2017 already.  It gives me something more to flesh out once I finish this round of edits and while I’m not working on edits I can plan and brainstorm and maybe plot a little. That’s the trick to NaNo. Finding your own rhythm for plotting and planning if you’re even into that. I am. This NaNo will be a little harder for me because I will be doing another story-in-verse. I have high hopes for NaNo this year for myself. Catfish and I are working on a new desk layout for me so that should prove interesting. I’m curious to see what crazy idea he comes up with. What crazy ideas we come up with.

Peace everyone.



August 30, 2017 / Heather

Pain… Hurrah…

Just a short post this time around. An update on Unexpected Moments will be at the bottom.

I’ve been dealing with some back pain lately. Catfish and I have a ramp at our back door and we park in the back yard (trust me, it’s easier that way) and every once in a while I fall on it.

A week ago as of this post I fell again. This time onto by back landing on my bag which had like 3 books and a computer in it as well as several pens in a bag and more. Amazingly all the materials in the bag were safe and still work. I wasn’t super concerned with my back because I’d fallen before. This time I’m still feeling pain off and on from the fall. Depending on what I do during the day I hurt sometimes less than others. So if I miss a post know I’m working on Unexpected Moments, but I’m trying to heal as well. I’m lying in bed as I write this.

Unexpected Moments is currently on track. I have to get my writing amount in for this week, but I’m confident that I will meet my goal this week because I have been on target and want to remain as such. I have a few beta readers who are helping me with some things. That’s all for now folks. Peace and good luck in your own ventures.