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December 12, 2018 / Heather

My Wrist Hates Me… Again!

Apologies now as I’m writing this to the “what if nothing” album by Walk the Moon. So it’s got me kind of bouncing all over the place.

My wrist currently hates me. Again. I’ve done a lot of typing over the last week and last week in particular my wrist was killing me. I think it may have very well whispered threats in my sleep… Made it SO much fun to try and function. *facepalm*

Currently my wrist isn’t as mad at me and it hasn’t resulted in me wearing the lovely wrist brace again (yet). I have been taking it easy and trying to not over tax myself with writing things.

Which also makes edits terribly fun.

I’m back to trying to edit Unexpected Moments and it… There are issues coming up. I’ll get through them, but I’m fighting issues with it because I’m not only drained physically at the moment, I’m mentally drained. Trying to fix that and also trying to help keep friends above water in their creative juices. It’s a great support system, I swear, it’s just a lot to handle right now. For some reason I’m feeling like a mother-hen this year. During NaNo I would regularly pop into my chats and go “Is everyone hydrating? Eating? Are you making sure you sleep?” and such things.

As I’m writing this I’m also making out a few more holiday cards because I’m actually doing that this year. Ha! @_@

I’m still working towards getting projects done this year and next. I’m excited and I’m also EXTREMELY nervous about it. Partly because of trying to get everything one on top of getting the other things I’ve been working on done. It’s nerve-wracking, but it’s also very rewarding when I get things accomplished.

And currently I’ve got a MAJOR support system around me. For once, I’m utilizing my support system and I’ve got goals laid out for 2019. I’m seriously excited about some of the things I’m wanting to get done in the coming year. I’m aiming to focus more on my mental health and the things I have down for my goals? Are things that are going to be aimed at me being happier all around.

Happiness is something we take for granted. Far too often. Think about it. You have a bad day and you remember it. But when was the last time you focused on having a good day? When you focus on the bad, you don’t remember the good.

Here’s an example of a good day.

  • Woke up with a smile despite having been restless.
  • Ran an errand without issue.
  • Figured out something for a gift.
  • Painted my nails (something I’m actually ABLE to do because I haven’t chewed my nails for almost 2 months!) for a holiday party coming up.
    • Laughed at the fact that painting my nails reminded me that I can’t feminine
    • Laughed harder at the reply from a close friend because they agreed with me.
  • Made holiday cards out to some friends and remembered a few other friends I might mail to.

Despite a few frustrating things that happened, I’m focusing on the good today.

This whole last year has been a lesson in focusing on the good. There has been a lot that has happened “behind the scenes” so to speak. Things that I haven’t shared here for one reason or another. Things that I would like to share, but that I would also like to keep private. Amazingly enough, I haven’t even used the “private” blog posts that I can do.

I’m trying to remain more organized. I’m trying to remain sane. And while some days I’m extremely frustrated (or even more down than up), I’m happy overall. There have been a number of changes in my life and things that have opened my eyes. I’m focusing on my dreams. Earlier this year a good friend (and former co-worker) was driving a few of us nuts with “what’s your big plan” for the year. Now? I’m embracing that energy and moving forward with a few things. I’m embracing his energy and running with it. And on some level I hate him for sharing that energy because he’s no longer around here, but I also love that he shared that energy. He ended up becoming like a brother of sorts to me and writing this I realize I need to make a holiday card for him as well. Gah! So many cards! X_X Is this adulting?

Peace all around, everyone. What are you working on?

~Heather/Razor/Shavor

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December 5, 2018 / Heather

Upcoming Projects and What’s Been Happening

Upcoming Projects:

In short, 2019 will be a year of edits and getting projects possibly out into the world. This terrifies me… A lot… But I will be doing my best to be making things possible. I want some dreams to finally become reality. There will be more information as things come about what projects I’ll be working on, but the highest priority is Unexpected Moments.

NaNo Comes, NaNo Goes…

NaNoWriMo has come and gone, y’all. This year, I had another success. Pulling off that success while doing everything I was doing… Was brilliantly fun. Though, I don’t feel like I was the ML I could have or should have been. There were several people who were thanking me for being ML and that… Was kind of weird because I felt like I was letting people down by not holding as many events as we’d had in the past and different things like that. I’m trying to put into plan a few ideas for next year, because I do plan on trying to be ML again. And I’m looking forward to it.

My project this year was titled “One Rainy Night” and I’m happy with it overall. It did prompt some new ideas for me and I’m excited about it. I’m looking forward to editing it and I’m also planning a couple of short stories to go along with it. We’ll see what’s going to happen.

Life Changes:

One of the reasons I was absent during part of November is because the Saturday before I had a whole week off… I’d worked that Saturday. Got off work, things happened… Short of it is that night we ended up running to the emergency vet hospital and my cat, Earl Grey, who was just over a year old, was dying. I do not know all the details about what caused it and while I do have thoughts I’d rather not think about them or live it again.

I’m still battling inner demons, but… There have been some fantastic people in my life who are helping me in ways I don’t think they ever thought they would. People from NaNo groups, from the NaNo region, and friends in general. I made a new friend back at my birthday and that person has been incredible during some of the worst times I’ve had, especially lately. They’ve helped me remember parts of myself that I forgot a long time ago. They don’t know I’m typing this about them, and yes, I’m using them because this person would likely want to remain anonymous.

Three of the projects you can expect to hear about next year:

  • Unexpected Moments
  • Meeting Mr. Right
  • Howl Your Heart Out
  • Because I Stayed; Because I Left
  • One Rainy Night
  • An unnamed project that I’ve been planning for a few years that I am GOING to do this year.
  • Possibly a few short story ideas that came about when I was writing One Rainy Night.

How are all of you lovely people doing? I hope you’re filled with peace this season.

~Heather/Razor/Shavor

PS. My mental health is slowly improving. I’m learning different things as I go along day by day and as long as I can I will be standing. I will keep moving forward. And I will continue improving upon the person I am.

November 7, 2018 / Heather

One Rainy Night – NaNo 2018

I’m writing this while I sit down with my first cup of tea for the day. I haven’t had tea for a little while, especially hot tea. So bear with me while I try to gather my thoughts together so this post can go live today. Heh.

My NaNoWriMo project for this year is titled One Rainy Night. It follows two beings.

Siaer Luca, who also goes by Luc. She is human, trying to find her place in the world, and the story opens up with her driving in a rainstorm until her car has broken down.

Then we have Ellory Fense, but please, call him Fense. He truly dislikes his first name.

Siaer’s car breaks down in front of where Fense lives. From there, the story goes on.

Synopsis on the NaNo site:

One rainy night a young woman’s car breaks down. She finds an old school turned into housing. It looks abandoned…

… It’s not.

I didn’t start writing until day 3 this year. Not by choice, but because I had other things I was dealing with and things in my personal life that I needed and wanted to take care of.

At the end of day 3 I only had 1609 words out of the ideal 5001. I was determined to have 7000 by the end of Sunday which had a goal of 6668. When I stopped writing for the night I had 7971. Almost 1000 words BEYOND what I was aiming for.

I haven’t written yet today, but when I pick my story up I will have a count of 12,015. The goal for today is 11,669 to be on par. I’m hoping to stay at least a day or two ahead of count.

Next week is going to be dedicated to staying ahead in my novel and working on other things that I haven’t had a chance to work on for some time. I’m behind on edits/revisions for Unexpected Moments, and I am planning on working through edits for Meeting Mr. Right in December. We’ll see just how much I can get done among 3 stories now.

Projects I’m currently working on:

  • Posting the 100 Theme Challenge from back in 2009 to my Wattpad account
  • Drafting poems into the Poetry story in my Wattpad account
  • Play project with a friend of mine. We’ve been meeting weekly for this, but our schedule this week got thrown off
  • Revisions and some finalizations for Unexpected Moments
  • Figuring out how to edit Meeting Mr. Right
  • Writing One Rainy Night

I’m dealing with a handful of things in my personal life that will remain with me and the people those things deal with. It’s nothing bad, but I don’t feel like sharing much of my personal life in this post. Maybe another post later on. Who knows, maybe it’ll be the post I inevitably do at the end of the year that has my New Years Resolutions in it. I feel like I should be working on those now, actually…

I have a few things to do and then I’m going to be getting to writing. Peace everyone. And if you’re NaNo-ing, happy writing.

~Heather/Razor/Shavor

October 31, 2018 / Heather

Halloween!

Hope everyone has a safe and happy Halloween! Enjoy yourselves!

October 24, 2018 / Heather

Birthdays

So… Yesterday was my birthday.

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I was celebrating it by being at work. I prefer working my birthday because usually my coworkers aren’t aware that my birthday is happening.

There was one year that I was closing at work with a couple of coworkers, one I called a friend back then (and still call her a friend) and the other I began to call a friend more over time.

The coworker who had been working downstairs all evening came up and was waiting on our other coworker and I to finish closing and she called out from the other side of the library saying happy birthday to me.

My other coworker? The one who had been across the room from my for 3+ hours? Turned on her heel and her jaw hit the floor. “WHY DIDN’T YOU TELL ME IT WAS YOUR BIRTHDAY?!” XD Guys… I laughed SO hard. It was too perfect.

~Heather/Razor/Shavor

(I’m drafting this post quite a ways in advance and at the time I’m drafting the post I have no plans for my birthday and I’m hoping to work on my birthday. As to if I end up getting plans for my birthday I have no clue. I try to avoid making plans for my birthday because my plans don’t always pan out. Especially when I’m involved. Lol.)

October 17, 2018 / Heather

Spooktacular Viewing: An American Werewolf in London

There’s no denying it, An American Werewolf in London is, without a doubt, one of my all-time favorite movies. And because October is the month with Halloween, my favorite holiday, I’m sharing some of my favorite horror/scary things. Last week I talked about one of my favorite authors, Mira Grant.

This post was tough to nail down. There are SO many great horror movies! And what counts as a horror movie varies depending on who you ask.

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This movie you guys… Two American college students go overseas to Britain and get themselves in some trouble. They get attacked by a werewolf and none of the local townsfolk will admit the beast exists.

I first saw this movie on VHS through my local library. It’s from 1981, okay? The effects are GOING to look cheesy. They’re going to be OBVIOUSLY fake. But that’s part of the enjoyment!

Why do I love this movie? Well… For one thing the werewolf does NOT look like a Wookie! Yes, that bothers me. Immensely. I HATE when werewolves look more like Wookies or bears instead of wolves or a wolf-human hybrid.

Some of my other favorite movies? Misery (Kathy Bates is love), Hocus Pocus, Halloweentown (the first one), and IT (both versions).

If you’re on the hunt for a good horror movie or if you have one to share leave a comment on the post and let’s talk horror! If you’re not into that sort of thing well… I hope you find a movie that gets you through the scary times.

~Heather/Razor/Shavor

October 10, 2018 / Heather

Scary Good Reading: Mira Grant!

Because October is the month that holds Halloween (my favorite holiday) I’m celebrating all month long!

Originally I was only planning on having a few book recommendations here. I had a list of four books. Misery, It, Dracula, and the Anita Blake Vampire Hunter series. After some thought and some serious laughter I decided on featuring one of my favorite authors instead! Mira Grant! I love this author. There are several authors I love, but Mira Grant, guys… Guys!!! She’s amazing. I’ve mentioned at least two of her books here before, Feed and Deadline… But she’s so amazing.

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Mira’s Newsflesh series follows some young adults during a political campaign in the post-zombie world. There are zombies, techies, politicians, corruption, and this series is just SO. MUCH. AWESOME! A friend recommended these to me and it took me AGES to get into the first book until I gave the audiobook a try. Addiction, thy name is Mira Grant. Whenever I hear she has a new book coming out I usually end up pre-ordering the audiobook on my Audible account (or at least putting it on my wish list so I can later grab the book).

Yes, Mira Grant also writes under the name Seanan McGuire and while I also enjoy her work as Seanan I’m more for her work as Mira. It’s darker and it fits better with my tastes, but go give her a try. Especially if you like creepy things.

Scary reading!

~Heather/Razor/Shavor

October 3, 2018 / Heather

On-the-fly

I haven’t done a post like this for some time. I think that’s a great thing, but also kind of a bad thing. I’m not entirely sure why I feel it’s a bad thing as well as a good thing, but I do. I have been trying to be good about drafting posts and not typing and then sending them immediately. But this post is on-the-fly.

What have I been up to lately?

See the image above…

The last week of September was a weird week at work because of a local fair being in town. I ended up working only at my desk two days straight doing computer work (tons of typing and some writing) totaling 17 or so hours at my desk between the two days and then coming home to continue working on things that involved more writing and typing for more hours. Not. Smart. Of. Me.

What else am I working on?

  • ML things for NaNoWriMo
  • Polishing Unexpected Moments
  • Planning edits for the next story I’ll publish after Unexpected Moments
  • Planning my NaNo project
  • Collaborating with a friend on a project (and I just had an idea for it too while typing this!)
  • Planning posts for my Wattpad account (uploading more poetry there)

What am I working on that’s not writing related?

  • Work
  • Work
  • Work
  • Work
  • Work
  • Work
  • Work
  • Trying not to hate myself (self-image issues)
  • Trying to better my mental health
  • Working on my goals and aspirations
  • Trying to get into a schedule
  • Trying to focus on the good and amazing people in my life especially when I see a hurtful message from someone at 4 in the morning that catches me at such a bad moment that I end up shaking and sobbing because the message was designed to trigger me which also leads to hating myself for letting it get to me.
  • Trying to maintain happiness.

One of the good things in my life right now is that I have some very sweet, cool, and amazing people in my life and I have them on my mind all the time which helps battle the not-so-nice-and-happy thoughts that are there.

Enough of my ramblings for now, I think. I have work to get doing.

Peace everyone.

~Heather/Razor/Shavor

September 26, 2018 / Heather

Bitmoji Addiction >.>

So… As you’ll see in the next several coming posts… I miiiiight have a slight addiction to using Bitmojis. For those who don’t know, Bitmojis are these things.

bitmoji-20180802020105.png And I really enjoy using them whenever given the opportunity. They’re almost as bad as GIFs, let’s be honest. And I love a good GIF. Like… I SERIOUSLY love a good GIF. I use them whenever I can. The above Bitmoji is, indeed, my favorite one. Partly because there’s a book, partly because it’s how I’d love to look, and partly because I just think it’s downright cool how technology has come so far as to allow us to be able to represent ourselves with such an image.

Primarily associated with Snapchat, Bitmojis are not super common, but I still have a lot of love for them. There’s a large range of expressions and all sorts of different things and I’d really like to utilize Bitmojis more.

I’m not entirely sure what else to post here, really. I didn’t have a plan for this psot other than me rambling about Bitmojis.

~Heather/Razor/Shavor

September 19, 2018 / Heather

Writing with a Bad Wrist

So, I know I’ve mentioned at least a time or two before, probably more times than I realize or can remember, but in any case…

This post is about writing with a wrist that doesn’t always cooperate. It’s going to be a little (a lot?) more serious than I tend to try and be. I usually try to be my goofy weird self, but sometimes I need to be serious.

I’m a writer. And I have tendonitis.

So what IS tendonitis?

The way it was explained to me back when I was “diagnosed”)is that it’s tendons that inflame. The way I tell people is usually “it’s like carpal tunnel, but there’s no surgery” or “it’s an RSI (repetitive stress injury)” or something akin to one of those. Basically when my wrist gets too worked it ends up hurting. A LOT. Most usually to the point where I can’t do anything with my wrist. It’s also one of the reasons I’m anal about ergonomics with keyboards and such being so important.

I used to do a LOT of writing by hand. Honestly, that’s all I did was write by hand unless otherwise required. I ended up doing so much writing (and texting and typing and other such things) that I essentially caused permanent damage to my wrist. I went from being able to write several pages at a time by hand to not being able to make it through writing one page by hand without severe pain.

These days I can write a page or so by hand without much pain, but there’s still pain involved. I have to be careful of what I do and how much I do. It’s a really good lesson in taking care of yourself and I wish I hadn’t had to learn it in the way that I did.

With that said yes, even the way I type sometimes does end up causing me some pain. Usually it’s a mixture of the amount that I’m typing/writing by hand and the weather even. If it’s too hot or too cold there’s a good deal of pain. Usually the hotter it is the more prone to pain I am. It’s part of why I always try to carry Aleve (I get the generic stuff) in my bag.

This is the 7th blog post I’ve drafted tonight. I’m on a roll, what can I say? Am I going to regret all this typing in the morning? Yes. Do I regret this already? I’m getting there. I love the typing and everything and yes, it’s been worth it, but it comes at a cost. This is the last post I’m drafting for the evening and it’s taken me longer to type this post out than it did to write the 6 other posts start to finish. Part of it is the ergonomics issue, but part of it is also the issue of how much I’ve typed so far this evening so quickly (and how much typing I’ve done in the rest of the day as well).

Take care of yourselves guys. Be it your wrists, arms, ankles, eyes, of whatever… Be careful. If I could go back and tell myself what I know now, I’d have done a few things differently (and not just in my dating life, lol).

~Heather/Razor/Shavor