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February 28, 2018 / Heather

Poetic… Problems

There’s one problem I have over several others. That problem is that I have too many stories in my head and also too many down on paper. I also don’t have time.

But I still do what I do when I do it. For however long I’ll be doing it.

Poetic problems of the day:

  • I have the day off, but will have limited computer time because I have a LOT of things I want to get done today.
  • I want to be editing, but I also need to be doing other things.
  • I’m working on schedules for editing one thing, posting others, and how to come up with new projects. This is more complicated than it sounds. It’s also more chaotic than it sounds!
  • It’s possible it’s going to keep raining the day I’m writing this and I was kind of hoping to take Gus on a walk because I don’t get to walk him as much as I’d like to (it’s also free and he loves going on walks).
  • I need to write poetry, but I’m more interested today in reading it.
  • I don’t want to write because writing poetry will make me think of the Snowbound Writers’ Contest and I’m nervous because I’m hoping I’ll at least place this year again (if you win 1st you can’t enter for 2 years and I got 3rd last year).

Things left to do today (the day I’m writing, not the day I’m posting) :

  • Clean the back seat of my car
  • Vacuum the front floor of the car
  • Replace the floor mats in my car
  • Grocery shopping
  • Fill car with gas
  • Deliver birthday gift
  • Come up with a regular schedule for adding stories onto my Wattpad account (the stories are already on deviantART and FictionPress)

Things I have already done today (it’s 11:16 as I write this sentence and I’ve been up since 7:30) :

  • Have breakfast with my sister
  • Renew a book due tomorrow
  • Draft this blog post
  • Start moving stories onto Wattpad
  • Calculate an editing schedule for “Unexpected Moments”
  • Figure a number of pages to edit for Camp NaNoWriMo that will coincide with my editing schedule (this sounds more complicated or weirder than it really is)

I’ve gotten really good at making lists of things. -.-‘ *sigh*


February 21, 2018 / Heather

eReading & Reading Goals

For those that have been reading for a while you might remember that I have a reading goal this year of 200 books total. That averages to be about 17 books a month (16.666666… you get the idea). As of this moment I’ve read 36 of my 200 book goal. This means I’m 18% of the way done. Thank you, Goodreads, for having my back and making this so much easier. What else makes this easier? eReading. I found that, for me, when I’m doing eReading/digital books I tend to read things faster than I would if I’m in a physical book. I’m not sure why, but when I’ve talked to others about this most other people also found the same thing. So if you’re trying to read a lot you might try more eReading. Remember, your local library likely has FREE eBooks and eAudiobooks you can borrow.

Why did I choose 200? Am I crazy? A masochist? Maybe, I don’t know. For the last few years I’ve beaten/met my challenge. I’m aiming to at least meet this challenge and I’m looking forward to it. It’s a good way to force myself into reading outside of my comfort zone, something I don’t usually do, and a great way to make sure I read more poetry, something I need to do more of, but frequently don’t. I’m also asking friends and coworkers for book suggestions and I’m going to be utilizing my Goodreads to-read list because it’s massive at this point.

My point in this? There’s not really a point. Challenge yourself. Try something new.

A couple weeks ago a coworker of mine was kind of oddly inspiring. We had a VERY slow day and being the only ones in the building we started discussing plans for the year. Basically, it boils down to him being ecstatic with “Broaden your mind” and similar phrases. I can’t remember exactly what it was he said, but it got to me.

Read that book you’ve been wanting to. Write that story you’ve been dreaming of writing. Do that thing you’re afraid to do (within reason, please don’t hurt yourselves or others guys).

That coworker of mine has big plans for the year and he got me thinking about a big plan for the year. What will this be the year that I do? Last year my big thing, according to him, was getting married.

This year, I’m going to attempt something big. Something that, for me, has been hanging over my head for quite some time and that I’m excited about. I’m not going to jinx anything, but I do feel comfortable saying I think it will force me to protect my time. I have an issue saying no when people ask me to help with something or do something. I need to get better about it. And I’m looking forward to this. I’m excited.

My coworker’s enthusiasm for a big project was contagious…

What are you going to try that’s a big thing this year?


February 15, 2018 / Heather

My “Brilliant” Dog

My dog is named Gus. Gus is…

Gus is not the smartest of creatures, but he’s adorable and full of love.

Love, and fear. And a lot of stupidity.

Tonight’s conversation:

Me: Catfish come here!

Him: Give me a minute, I’m helping your dog.

Me: My dog needs more help than you can give him.

Him: At least this time it’s an easy fix. He just wrapped around the one pole a million times like it was a may pole.


Him: I’m thinking he was a potato in a past life and then became a dog, but kept the intelligence of a potato.

Honestly? It just got better from there. 😂 I love my dog. He makes us laugh. And I love my husband because he puts up with my adorably stupid dog.


February 7, 2018 / Heather

Poetic Plans

Yeah, I’ve got a number of plans in my head, but not much of it has made it to paper at the moment.

A couple of weeks ago I had a story title idea pop into my head, but I didn’t write it down right away and of course that means the idea disappeared without a trace. I think the idea came back to me recently, but I’m not sure if that’s the case or if this is just a new idea. I’m still working on edits for Unexpected Moments and I’m looking forward to really diving back into them. It’s going to be SO GOOD to get back to what I’m missing.

It’s also going to be great to get some poetry done again.

I think I’m going to stick to writing in verse for some time. It’s easier on my mind, but not the page count. Ha!

A week and a day from the date of this posting is when the Snowbound Writers contest entries are due by 5:30 P.M. and I’m very excited to enter again this year. Hopefully I will have submitted my entries before this post goes live (I’m typing it on the 31st in hopes that if I have a post drafted I won’t feel like I have to get a post going and ready the week it goes live and that I’ll feel like I can spend more time actually putting thought into the post.

I’m also really REALLY far behind on my DeviantART notifications and watches and such things. I’m also still trying to get updates done there and get some things going better. I’m hoping to remember to use the app more, but it would also be nice if using the app would actually clear notifications of recently posted pieces, but such is not the case it seems. C’est la vie. For the time being, enjoy a motivational penguin GIF that’s been sitting in a flash drive of mine for AGES that I recently rediscovered. I love this little guy.

Motivational Penguin

Not sure copyright information, using for cuteness and motivational boosting.


January 31, 2018 / Heather

Apology, Goals 2018, & “Progress”

Currently typing this right before I’m posting it because damn it I’m going to have something up for a blog post before the first month of the year is over!

Apology: Primarily this is my apology for not having something up earlier in the year. I’ve been working a lot and it’s taken its toll on me. I’m not sure what will be happening from here on out, but all I know is I’m hoping that I don’t keep working extra Saturdays. (We’re on a 3 week rotation meaning I work 1 of every 3 Saturdays, but Feb. 3rd will be my 4th Saturday worked this year and I’m not going to get into details at this time on other things.) TL;DR: I’m sorry I haven’t posted yet this year, things have been crazier than usual.

Goals 2018: I think I posted something about this at another time, but I’ve got a small list of goals/things to accomplish for the year. My list is currently:

  • Read 200 books
  • Write more
  • Post more to Wattpad
  • Utilize Fitbit app
  • Stop biting nails
  • Post regularly to Instagram

So far I’ve read 27 books this year, I haven’t done any writing, I haven’t really even OPENED my Wattpad app, I have been utilizing my Fitbit and Fitbit app, I have not chewed my nails (I have broken a few but I expected that to happen), and I’ve been posting fairly regularly to my Instagram account. So far, so good.

FYI, 200 books a year averages to 16.some odd books per month so if I can get 17 books read in a month I’ll be on par, but obviously I’m already ahead of that goal.

“Progress” is the tricky subject here… Partly because I feel like I’ve made progress with some things, other things I feel like I’ve actually backtracked, and I made the note with the title of this blog post like a week ago or Monday (some time between the two) and for the life of me I can’t remember what details I had in my mind for this part of the post. Who knows what goes through my head half the time.

One thing that there HAS been progress on is that I’ve been in the talks with an artist whose work I deeply admire about having her do a book cover. I’m not going to give any details on that for now, but suffice to say that we’ve been discussing it for a while and I’m very happy and confident. I had asked a handful of different artist friends their thoughts on covers and even recommended a different artist I knew back in middle and high school to an author friend of mine and the artist made the cover for one of my friend’s books and it turned out awesome and I feel very lucky in that my author friend showed me in progress pics and asked my opinion because she and I had been talking a lot about that story of hers.

TL;DR: book stuff!

The Earl Grey kitten is no longer a super tiny kitten and it saddens me, but he’s still super fluffy and not as heavy as our other cat yet. I would have pictures, but I’m writing this on a computer and my pictures are on my phone. Maybe other updates will have pictures of the pets. Who knows. I can’t see the future.

Hope everyone is well and that you’re all working on something that makes you happy.


December 27, 2017 / Heather

Last of 2017

This will be my last post of 2017. Because my next post will hopefully be on the first Wednesday of 2018!

I have some goals for the new year. Read 200 books, write more, post to Wattpad more, use my Fitbit better, and a few other things. We will see if I can do it all. There’s a lot of stuff happening.

Married life is no different than life was before. I don’t feel different and I doubt he does. I still read, he still games. We still hang out with our respective friends, I still have girl time with some friends. Hoping to spend New Years Eve together. Looking forward to time off together that’s not a family holiday because sleeping in sounds like gold.

My in-laws gave me some super plush fluffy warm blankets this year and I’m in love with the blankets. I spent my day off yesterday curled up basically not getting out of bed until I absolutely had to.

My folks gifted books by Christopher Moore and omg that was the thing I focused on. That, and the new sweats they gave me and the scarves that I’m wearing. Only wearing one right now, but I layer them when I go outside. It’s so cold here that I don’t want to do anything.

I’m sittingnin a Starbucks right now writing because I haven’t done so for a long time.

23rd: cookie day with mother-in-law was awesome, but ended up not being able to bend my knees or I couldn’t un bend them when I did get them bent.

24th: 6:33 A.M. woken by Charlie horse in leg. Got it rubbed out and it seized again, didn’t get that one out and it happened again, almost get that one out and it reseized again…

Later that night: heading to car after Christmas Eve dinner with his family and I slip and fall on my back in the road. I’m still feeling it…

So painkillers are my friend right now. Wish me luck guys. This sucks. Hope you’re all better than I am. Luckily I haven’t gotten the flu. *fingers crossed*

Peace all.


December 6, 2017 / Heather


I’m having trouble at the moment being clear and not deep.

Have some puppy pics.


November 29, 2017 / Heather

A Very Late Post

So it’s been almost a month since the last post went up…

There’s really no excuse.

I got married, did some writing, gave up on NaNoWriMo for this year (2nd year in a row that I don’t finish), spent time with family, and in general did some random stuff.

I’ve finally started feeling like I’ve gotten caught up at work with a few of the duties I’ve been given. Took me long enough, right? I was off for 2 weeks, but it’s been a little chaotic getting back into the swing of things.

I was planning on writing this post via the mobile app so I could easily post it and even add some pictures. I took some nice shots of my dog recently.

If you remember, Catfish and I did get a kitten and he’s adjusted VERY well to the family. Gus and Earl Grey haven’t had much time together yet, but Timba and Earl Grey have had a lot of time to bond and get their plotting done together and for Tim to teach him some very bad habits.

Earl Grey also has his OWN bad habits… Like pulling down my curtains. And he chews cords worse than Tim does/did. We HAD Timba broken of that habit, but Earl Grey apparently got him back into it. Tim just chews until the cords show and the headphones are useless. Earl Grey chews until the thing breaks apart. Damn cats…

Hopefully I’ll be able to do a better update later. I don’t feel the greatest at the moment, but I feel like I’ve gotten a lot done lately and I’m hoping to get even more done soon.

I’m currently reading Joe Hill’s latest book “Strange Weather” a collection of 4 short novels. I’ve been listening to the audiobook mostly, but I have read a little of the eBook/physical book. I finished the first story and I’m hoping to finish the 2nd one tonight or maybe tomorrow depending on how I feel while listening tonight and while reading once I get home. I’ve been spending some time at my local library.

For those who are wondering, yes I changed my name. I will still go by Shavor and Razor, but my legal name changed and I’m really excited and happy about that. It was a lot easier than I thought it would be.

Time for me to get writing and playing with a calendar. x.x I hate this time of year for that reason… I update 2 calendars for the whole coming year…


November 1, 2017 / Heather

Just a few more days…

That’s right. Just a few more days as of this posting until I get married. I’m nervous, excited, and just… Internally I’m screaming like you wouldn’t believe. There’s a lot that I’m looking forward to, like seeing a lot of people, but there are also things that I’m not looking forward to, like meeting new people. Catfish and I both invited people that the other hasn’t actually met yet. For him, it’s coworkers I haven’t met. For me, it’s family he hasn’t met as well as a few friends. ^^’

I’m excited to meet people that work with him and have worked with him for a while. He’s gotten to meet a number of my coworkers, so why shouldn’t I meet his, right? I’m also nervous about that because sometimes I don’t do well with new people and it’ll be a battle with what I call anxiety issues. That’s going to be a royally fun day. Thankfully I’ll have him, the monkey, and different people that I know around to help me out.

What am I most excited about? We already live together and have for a while. We already sleep beside each other almost each night. That’s not going to change. We have pets together, we don’t want kids. We have bills together, etc.

I’m looking forward to being “officially” married. Under some states there’s something called “common-law marriage” which basically states if you’ve lived together for so long and a few other factors then you’re considered legally married. Our state doesn’t do that.

I’m seriously looking forward to the whole little ceremony thing and the fact that one of my favorite uncles will be there for the whole thing. He hasn’t been back here in a long time and the last few times he’s been back have all been for funeral and death related things. We actually have something to celebrate. And so help me if any of my family try to start something or run mouths or anything at all I’m going to be the first one to throw them out. And I mean physically. I might have lost a lot of strength over the years, but I’m still pretty damn strong compared to some people. And most of my family members who would try to start anything are smaller than I am, except in height. And I’ve also got several people who would help me throw others out if I needed help or if someone started anything. These are the people I can’t live without in my life.

There’s also another person who’s coming from out of state that I’m SUPER excited about, my buddy Lupus. He hasn’t been out here before and we’ve known each other for a long time and he’s seen me through some pretty rough things.

There is someone I wish was coming that I never even got the chance to invite. Shao. He’s not just a friend, he’s also an ex of mine that I’ve stayed on really good terms with. He’s a riot and I haven’t been able to reach him for a while.

The weather here is getting pretty danged cold. Makes for beautiful Fall/Autumn weather, but makes for a really friggen hard time getting out of bed because this also means that I’m not using as much time as I could to plan NaNo. I’ve got most of the stuff I want to have planned out planned. I’m also planning on going to the write-in tonight (the night I’m writing this, not the night it’s posted. That’s the downside and trouble of drafting posts is I don’t know for certain what’s going to happen between the time I write a post and the time the post goes live). If I manage to make it it’ll be my FIRST time at one. Correction, it’s the kick-off party for the local region, not a write-in. Write-ins don’t happen until after NaNo starts. I’m just so excited that I might actually be able to get to y’know DO THINGS that I don’t usually get to do!

All I’m going to share for now is that my story is currently titled “Thoughts [Un]Interrupted”. I really like this title and I’m excited for it. I’ve also got several other thoughts and stories buzzing around inside my head that are making it hard to concentrate. I’m actually kinda concerned about a few things for this NaNo. There’s more information on that in my DeviantART Journal though. At least there probably will be. Can’t say for sure because I’m going to be writing that after I finish drafting this.

Have a good one, folks. And yes, after the wedding I’ll still be going by and signing off the same way. Peace. HAPPY NANO!!!


October 25, 2017 / Heather


This last week hasn’t been easy. The cats are getting along fine now, they play a bit rougher than I’m used to, but that might just be my boys.

Time is passing really quickly. I haven’t been able to get much reading in and that includes listening to audiobooks. There has been a lot on my mind, most of which being the impending NaNoWriMo 2017 that I’m not prepared for. I’m nervous because I have very little in my head for this NaNo. Less than I usually do. I might do something I haven’t done in a LONG time.

Some good news is that I think I’ve finally overcome biting my nails. I still pick at them off and on, but I’m not chewing them like I used to. I’m currently on week 3 and I think what finally helped me here in breaking it is I’m not only tired of the pain if I chew them too far down, but I’m doing this while a friend of mine is trying to eat better and lose a little weight. I’m doing it this time because she inspired me and I’ve told her this. I don’t want to let her down. That’s one of my biggest things. I don’t want to let people down.

It feels good to be writing this, partly because I’m writing it on my laptop, but partly because I’m writing this at a new desk with a candle burning next to my computer, in front of my chalkboard and it smells beautiful. I’m also listening to “Sleeping Beauties” by Stephen King and Owen King.

I’m also looking forward to the next few weeks because after this week I have 2 weeks I took off. I’m looking forward to getting married, yes. But I’m also looking forward to an uncle of mine coming home for the first time in a long time. This isn’t his home anymore, but I call it coming home because he grew up back here. There’s also a good friend of mine who’s going to be coming here for the wedding and that’s one of my biggest things. We’ve talked about meeting and visiting each other for years and this is… It’s happening. He’s an awesome person and I can’t wait to get a bunch of pictures with him and show him around my city and just have a blast.

Catfish has given me one of the best gifts. We took down my desktop and my old desk Sunday night and he finished putting up the new one, but on top of that he fixed it when I’d broken something by following the instructions and had gotten so frustrated I “rage quit”. For those unfamiliar with the term, “rage quit” means to stop something or give it up because you’ve gotten mad or frustrated with it to the point where you can’t stand it anymore. In extremes it’s where someone, usually a gamer, has stopped playing and done something like throw a controller or break a game disc. Don’t tell me this doesn’t happen, because Catfish HAS broken a disc in anger. It was a $5.00 game though, but still. Bottom line is I know it’s happened. People also rage quit books because you frequently hear about people throwing books across the room because they couldn’t believe what happened.

I’m making decent progress in this book, but I’m also listening to this one, listening to another one, and reading something different. I had also pre-ordered a Kindle copy of the new Joe Hill book “Strange Weather”. I’m super excited to read it because it’s 4 stories by him, so the length and layout seems nice because they sound like they’re going to be decent length stories in this book because it’s over 250 pages.

We’ll see how things go here soon. Like I mentioned before there’s still a lot of planning and plotting I need to do for my NaNo novel this year. I do have a title, though I’m not stating what it is here quite yet. It depends on how things go.

Peace everyone.